The holidays

The past two weeks have been brutal. I don't have a cheerful holiday post or witty words. When I upload the few pics taken then I'll be able to get around to all that. I haven't blogged in way too long (for my liking) and it's because life has totally sucked.

Tonight... I recap. Purely so I know we came out on the other side.

Friday, Dec 19: Maddox had his MRI. Nerve wracking because of sedation and potential outcomes. Got results that day - he's got damage all over but not moreso in one spot. (What we expected) he's restless all night, I assume because of sedation.

Saturday, Dec 20: Maddox real cranky and not sleeping well

Sunday, Dec 21: agitated all day, doesn't sleep at all. More than not sleeping... He's in pain. Nonstop

Monday, Dec 22: I take him to daycare for he sole purpose of getting a couple hours of sleep. I fully prepare them and they oblige. I call at 11:30 to check in and he's been inconsolable off and on all morning (but they love him/me) and knew I needed the break. I take him to the pedi (ours is off on Mondays so we saw someone else) and he was very concerned. Ran every test - even went to outpatient to run more blood work. Nothing came back. Another sleepless night.

Tuesday, Dec 23: my oldest sister comes down to attempt to rescue my sanity. Because of sleepless nights, not enough packing had occurred so she came to help. Maddox had a remarkably normal day at home and Hudson played perfectly at daycare. Maddox saved all crankies for nighttime. I realize while giving nighttime meds that we are out of robinol (his med that dries up secretions). Awesome.

Wednesday, Dec 24 (Christmas Eve): Maddox is über cranky. We press on. We have dinner at kyles parents, Maddox crashes in time for us to do presents, wakes up at home mad, and I finally get him to sleep long enough for Santa to come. As Kyle and I head to bed - he becomes irate. He's screaming and crying so much that he quits breathing twice. The second time I tell Kyle to call 911 only to immediately change my mind and tell him I'll take him and for him to call his mom and have her meet me there. I drive Maddox to the ER in my lap, give him a breath once on the way there when he decided to quit again. The amount of spit this kid had could've floated the ark, but no fluid in his lungs... God handled that. His O2 sat was terrible so of course we had an admit... On Christmas Eve. 

Thursday, Dec 25 (Christmas Day): thankfully my MIL stayed with Maddox a few hours so I could be home for Hudson waking up. It truly was magical. I'm so grateful for the few hours I had with him. He's amazing and I love seeing the world through his eyes. I went back to be with Maddox and had a chat with the dr on call. I told him I thought this was all reflux related and excess secretions. After some history and talking he agreed. So we vamped up meds and worked on improving O2 sat.

Friday, Dec 26: saw the same dr we saw Monday in clinic. He reviewed all that had happened and was relieved we found a source. He was hesitant, but trusted me, so he let us go home. We loaded up and went to Gramma Terries. All the bakers came out to see us and randi and her kids and robin and hers. I had a much better 1 yr old but a super cranky 3 yr old.

Saturday, Dec 27: granny Jo and PawPaw came out to get their love the. We had Christmas with the cousins. Shortly after, we loaded up and headed to Pineville. We tried to finish packing.

Sunday, Dec 28: the rains began. We packed and loaded the uhaul. We worked from 10am-1am. And finally crashed at kyles parents.

Monday, Dec 29: more rain! closed in both houses. A crew of the best family and friends helped paint the entire house... Both coats!!! Both boys in decent moods. Sleeping at in laws

Tuesday, Dec 30: more unpacking, made the first inaugural shopping trip for the new house. Boys are good. Still with in laws (thankfully so!)

Wednesday, Dec 31: Maddox starts vomiting every feed. Weird. Kyles mom comes after lunch and helps at the house and Hudson is so excited to be "at my new house!!!!" We slept in the new house for the first time New Years Eve - not a brilliant plan because Hud kept saying, "the firecrackers are in my ears momma!!!"

Thursday, Jan 1: worked a lot, Maddox spit up some more, Kyle and Hudson went to the family New Years lunch and me and Maddox rested.

Friday, Jan 2: send kids to school, Maddox apparently started spitting up again. Call surgeon and pedi, everyone agrees to get upper GI done. Thankfully, my BFF is in town now. Head to hospital for upper GI. Hudson heads to his Uncle Kodys house for his first sleepover with them. Maddox's GI looks perfect. About the time we get home, Kyle calls saying Hudson is throwing up at Kodys. No more sleepover. Me and hud alternate throwing up all night.... So apparently Maddox had a bug not a GI malfunction. 

Saturday, Jan 3: this momma was dehydrated and full of fever. Kyle was upper dad while me and the kids rehydrated and rested.

Sunday, Jan 4: we woke up to the sunshine and energy. I got a good but done around the house and spent some good time with my kiddos. 

Work starts back tomorrow and I think we'll all do good with some routine again....